Its haunting me Again

I hate this feeling. This feeling was the scariest and it could make you depressed and heartbeats faster than ever.
When i called him, there's no answer, when messaging, no reply, and I found out he was not at home nut somewhere else... til morning comes... Can you guess what would it be?
I can hardly sleep, hardly breath, worried, trembling, speechless ...blank!
This is not the first time, as it recall me from an ex-boyfriend. My ex did the same to me last time and he told me tat my ex is not a good guy and a bastard, and he treating me really nice as he claimed himself would never do those kind of foolish behaviour. When time past, things are going different and what i notice was, MOSTLY all guys is the same!
I'm kinda disappointed and those behaviour really killing me and almost reaches the gate of the other world. Well, what i can say is, this moment, a minutes seems like an hour for me. Why i cant just sleep and the next day i wake and new beginning is waiting for me but why is there a weird feeling disturbing me from my beautiful life given by my lovely parents.
I should not suffered myself because of those so called gentleman but indeed, he's a bastard too.
I hope that was my last lesson and if the same thing happens to me in the future, i will quit from the game of love and surrender by claiming myself as loser of the love battlefield.

WHY?

Sad, cry, hurt, break, sorrow, struggle, stress, poor, die, disappointed, fear .. all these craps words cant just vanish from my life?
Why everytime my happiness must follow by sadness and tears?
I'm just a simple lil human who only wish for simple, peaceful and harmony life. Never harm any one b4, quite helpful and loves to give a hand on those who needs , was that a sin?
I have lovely grandparents and loving parents. We all loves to help others and same, their heart was very kind and never harm anyone. Why those bad things kept attacking them? I'm willing to take all their sickness and suffer alone rather than watching them struggling like this.
Today, i hold my grandmother's hand and i can feel she is very skinny compared to last time, her leg was weak to walk but she pretended to be strong. my tears dropping but i cant let them c it cuz they will hurt to c me sad. i hope she can overcome her sickness and also same to my grandfather who cares for every member in the family.I'm now suddenly blank. Will continue this in some other time..

Happy Time

At last we went to watch movie in the cinema today.. but that movie makes me damn headache n feeling like-vomit. Although suffered in the cinema, but the whole day was very sweet and full of love. I love my Hubby very much and hope everyday also can be this happy no matter where and whatever we do... Shopping, watching movie, eat all day long, walk around and take pics, what a healthy life compared to last time, almost everyday clubbing.
what we enjoy now is enjoy the day,vacation,...lolz.
Too happy till i have no idea on what else to continue today's topic..
Thats all for now...

I Love You - Celine Dion

I must be crazy now
Maybe I dream too much
But when I think of you
I long to feel your touch

To whisper in your ear
Words that are old as time
Words only you would hear
If only you were mine

I wish I could go back to the very first day I saw you
Should've made my move when you looked in my eyes
'Cause by now I know that you'd feel the way that I do
And I'd whisper these words as you'd lie here by my side

I love you, please say
You love me too, these three words
They could change our lives forever
And I promise you that we will always be together
Till the end of time

So today, I finally find the courage deep inside
Just to walk right up to your door
But my body can't move when I finally get to it
Just like a thousand times before

Then without a word he handed me this letter
Read I hope this finds the way into your heart, it said

I love you, please say
You love me too, these three words
They could change our lives forever
And I promise you that we will always be together
Till the end of time

Well maybe I, I need a little love yeah
And maybe I, I need a little care
And maybe I, maybe you, maybe you, maybe you
Oh you need somebody just to hold you
If you do, just reach out and I'll be there

I love you, please say
You love me too
Please say you love me too
Till the end of time
These three words
They could change our lives forever
And I promise you that we will always be together

Oh, I love you
Please say you love me too
Please please
Say you love me too
Till the end of time
My baby
Together, together, forever
Till the end of time
I love you
I will be your light
Shining bright
Shining through your eyes
My baby

Was it My last one?? Hope it was...

Finally I've found my companion. This man really treat me nice n pampered me alot. I love him but nothing is perfect in this world. His negative thinking is really makes me sick and i hope he can be a healthy n positive thinker. I hope he can be same as me, happy go lucky whether with me or not with me in future. He is really a very kind, nice n gentlemen. I also hope that he can be my last man in my life. Since he came into my life, everything has changed. He painted my love and my life. my love really colourful since he came... thanks for that^_^

Cant Take That Away

They can say anything they want to say
Try to bring me down
But I will not allow
Anyone to succeed
Hanging clouds over me
And they can try hard to make me feel
That I don't matter at all
But I refuse to fall
Doing what I believe
Or lose faith in my dreams

CHORUS:
'Cause there's a light in me
That shines brightly
They can try
But they can't take that away from me
From me

Oh no, no ,no, no, no, no, no, no, no
They.......Oh
They, they can't do anything they want to you
Lf you let them in
But they won't ever win
If you cling to your pride
And just push them aside
See
I, i have learned there's an inner peace I own
Something in my soul
That they cannot possess
So I won't be afraid
And the darkness will fade

'Cause there there's a light in me
That shines brightly
They can try
But they can't take that away from me

No oh...
They can't take this
Precious love
I'll always have inside me
Certainly the Lord will guide me
Where I need to go

Oh....

They can't say anything they want to say
Try to bring me down
But I won't face the ground
I will rise steadily
Sailing out of their reach

Oh Lord
They do try hard to make me feel
That I don't matter at all
But I refuse to fall
Doing what I believe
Or lose faith in my dreams

'Cause there's a light in me that shines brightly
Hey... hey...
They can try
But they can't take that away from me

Be With You

I know they wanna come and separate us
but they can't do us nothin
Your the one I want and Im a continue lovin
Cause your considered wify and Im considered husband
And Ima always be there for you

wǒ bùguǎn nǐ yòng rènhé yǎnguāng kàn wǒ [CHI]
wǒ dōu búhuì xuǎnzé
fàngqì
wǒ yào jiānchí dàodǐ hūlüè nàxiē lěngyánlěngyǔ
ài shì rúcǐ zhēnguì zhídé wǒmen bǐcǐ xiāngxìn
liǎngkē xīn cái yuè kào yuè jìn

And no one knows
Why Im into you
Cause you'll never know
what its like to walk in our shoes

méi rén huì dǒng shì wǒmen de mèng [CHI]
dǒng zài duō kùnnan zhǐyào qiānshǒu jiù biàn de bùtóng

Thats why we'll break through
And I dont care what they say
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
I wanna be with you

wǒ búzàihu zěnme zuò [CHI]

Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
Seems like every day that go by, things are gettin harder
Wanna be the one that give you the whole enchilada
Cause I know what my baby like, I lean you on that Prada
You aint got to match with the shoes


wǒ zhīdào měiyícì de gōutōng jiù huì ràng wǒ ài nǐ gèngduō[CHI]
gēn yícì de yōngbào wēnnuǎn ràng wǒ búzài
ài shì zhēnshí de chùmō měihǎo huò xiāngtóng

Keepin it always true
And no one knows
Why Im into you
Cause you'll never know what it's like to walk in our shoes

méi rén huì dǒng shì wǒmen de mèng [CHI]
dǒng zài duō kùnnan zhǐyào qiānshǒu jiù biàn de bùtóng

Thats why we'll break through
And I dont care what they say
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
I wanna be with you


wǒ búzàihu zěnme zuò [CHI]

Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you

You are everything in my life, see the joy you bring
And aint no one I compare you to
And I know that you will never
walk away from me no matter what
And thats why I plan to do the same thing for you
And I want you to know


Rap Wilber:

Be in my life with me
You know you my queen B
Show you the finer things in life and places you wanted to be
Its trips to Miami, rockin Tenjunge NYC
Party up at club Bling till 6 in da morning
Dont want yo body figure sexually
I wanna pop you figures annually, showing you security
You dont gotta worry B
Satisfaction guaranteed
You dont need another G
You can have it all in me
You like morphine ,you soothe me
Through the pain and the struggles,
it gets hot, you cool me
Cuz Yous a wifey quality qualified
Warranty you certified
You know how to get me high, hotter than a super ride
You know when you want it, you need it you know I got it
You know when you want me, you need you know I give it
So whenever in doubt, you can count on me
Whatever, its you be under my wing
Whenever youre down, you can put it on me
And wherever you go, you be rocking my ring
(Rap End)

And I dont care what they say
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
I wanna be with you



wǒ búzàihu zěnme zuò [CHI]


Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
And I dont care what they say
Im gonna be with you
I gonna be with you
I wanna be with you

wǒ búzàihu zěnme zuò [CHI]

Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you
Im gonna be with you