When There Was Me And You

Its funny when you find yourself, looking from the outside.
I'm standing here but all i want, is to be over there.
Why did i let myself believe, Miracles could happen.
'Cause now i have to pretend, that i don't really care.

I thought you were my fairytale, a dream when i'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star that's coming true.
But everybody else could tell, that i confused my feeling, with the truth, when there was me and you.

I swore i knew the melody, that i heard you singing.
And when you smiled u made me feel, like i could sing along.
But then you went and changed the words, now my heart is empty.
I'm only left with used-to-be's, And once upon a song..

Now i know you're not a fairytale, and dreams were meant for sleeping,
And wishes on a star, just don't come true.
'Cause now even i can tell, that i confused my feeling with the truth, because i like the view, When there was me and you..

I can''t believe, that i could be so blind,
Its like you were floating while i was falling, And i didn't mind, because i liked the view,.
I thought you felt it too, When there was me and you.......

I STILL LOVE YOU...

Time goes by slowly.. already a month didn't meet him(doesn't count that day in the club with a glance of staring). I still miss him and love him like before. I couldn't find an answer for myself. My heart still cant fit for other guys. My heart still bleeding and when it stops? When can i stop loving him? What ever i done also cant erase him from my memories. He is my 2nd most dearest man in my life.. Even in future i found a better one, that also wont take his place in my heart. I swear.

Chapter 2: Wishing for the hope was not fake

Today, Happy is very happy because her 'pending hubby' chat with her on the internet and telling her that he will really keep his promise that will be together with her in future but just don't know when can be together like last time. Happy missed those moment that she have been through with her 'pending hubby'. Only the sad one is, she still don't understand why they cant be together like last time and felt that the 'pending hubby' hiding from her. This is her last hope and strength to live happily.. and she also sad because the 'pending hubby' asked her to enjoy her single life first. That is not what she wanted but she have no choice because she love him very much. She also cant find out the answer why. Love is really blind. Hope this time Happy wont being hurt again because her heart is very fragile. Hope that the 'pending hubby' really meant what he had promised Happy and its not a fake hope. I believe she really couldn't stand the pain anymore. Just waiting for the day to come but don't know have chance to wait for the day...

Chapter 1: Story of a silly girl (part 2)

The next day, Happy cant stand anymore and asked the guy, actually what position are they now, the guy answer her, 'pending wife and pending husband'. That is not the actual answer that Happy wanted, he seems didn't really answer to her question so she just keep thinking the solution to let herself don't suffer like this anymore. One more friend of Happy told her the same thing that Iceman told her about guys. Now with her own eyes and heart, she can feel it whether is fact o not. Happy told herself not to be naive anymore and will use all her strength to walk through this ring of pain that full of her tears, time wasted but gained four true friends that have helped her escape from the ring. What Happy thinking now is, fate is fate. Well, if they have fate, at last also will be together.. Let it flow natural and not waiting anymore. The memories will always be kept in her memory.
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Chapter 1: Story of a silly girl (Part 1)

This story reviews about a girl name Happy. Happy is a cheerful, easy-going, caring, understanding but a silly girl. She being hurt by a jerk(ex boyfriend) who been together for 4 years but already break for more than a year. Now she thought that she'd found her true love but this time, being disappoint again. The main problem is time. After sometimes, she cant stand anymore and asked to break with the guy. The guy agreed. Although Happy is the one who asked for break, but she still love and cant let go this relationship but have no choice. For both of them stop to suffer as what the guy said, she just end it. After a day, she felt uneasy cause she used to listen to his voice or received sms from him. She starting to miss him so badly and will even think of him when she hang out with her friend to cool down. She don't even have feeling with those guys that going after her some is since years ago.. Suddenly, she received a massage from the guy saying that he will come back ti find her to get her be his wife and he loves her and now only the matter of time. He also said that after he get his things done, he will definately come back and it wont take long. Happy was so happy and she waiting for the day since then but she don't know and confused about their relationship now because seems everything changed even the guy say sweet words and calling her whatever when they were together. Happy waiting and waiting, not dare to sms the guy o call him because fear will disturb him but the guy also never call or sms her. Seems like forget about her or maybe inconvenient having another affair or anything. She end up think nonsense, sad, cry, but hope the day will reach as soon as possible. A friend of Happy, named Iceman, cant take it seeing her like that, and wake her up by telling her wat really happening and asked her not to be silly n waited for the day. Iceman even offered Happy that he would help her to find out that is her guy really love her and was only busy on work or having affair at outside but Happy don't want Iceman to do that. She scared to accept the fact so she just leave it that way.. (to be continue...)

What is Love?

Love is patient, Love is blind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking. It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs...

The very last minutes in my life...

If in the last minute of my life, an angel comes down of the sky and it offered me to the eternal life or one more minute with you, I would choose one more minute to be with you, because the eternal life without you does not exist.
In the end, I realize that I am very happy now, and I would not finish to tell you everything that Im thinking because i prefer to show it all to you...

The feeling coming back to haunt me...

After today, already 2 weeks didn't see him. I miss him so much but couldn't see him. my heart aching and bleeding inside. The situation now is completely different from the day before..the happiness is gone, only leaving behind memories..
My feeling seems to be like falling down from a very tall building and still alive but heavily injured... suffer. My heart just like being torn.
Although cant compared to my last 4 years relationship ending feel, but tis time it also pain. it was really hurt. From the inside to outside and from the outside to the inside..
I'd forced myself to not to think of him but i just cant control.. Last time's incident makes me collapse badly in whatever for almost a year plus.. This time, how long it would takes to heal....everyday end up shedding tears upon my pillow..