Chapter 1: Story of a silly girl (part 2)

The next day, Happy cant stand anymore and asked the guy, actually what position are they now, the guy answer her, 'pending wife and pending husband'. That is not the actual answer that Happy wanted, he seems didn't really answer to her question so she just keep thinking the solution to let herself don't suffer like this anymore. One more friend of Happy told her the same thing that Iceman told her about guys. Now with her own eyes and heart, she can feel it whether is fact o not. Happy told herself not to be naive anymore and will use all her strength to walk through this ring of pain that full of her tears, time wasted but gained four true friends that have helped her escape from the ring. What Happy thinking now is, fate is fate. Well, if they have fate, at last also will be together.. Let it flow natural and not waiting anymore. The memories will always be kept in her memory.
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Chapter 1: Story of a silly girl (Part 1)

This story reviews about a girl name Happy. Happy is a cheerful, easy-going, caring, understanding but a silly girl. She being hurt by a jerk(ex boyfriend) who been together for 4 years but already break for more than a year. Now she thought that she'd found her true love but this time, being disappoint again. The main problem is time. After sometimes, she cant stand anymore and asked to break with the guy. The guy agreed. Although Happy is the one who asked for break, but she still love and cant let go this relationship but have no choice. For both of them stop to suffer as what the guy said, she just end it. After a day, she felt uneasy cause she used to listen to his voice or received sms from him. She starting to miss him so badly and will even think of him when she hang out with her friend to cool down. She don't even have feeling with those guys that going after her some is since years ago.. Suddenly, she received a massage from the guy saying that he will come back ti find her to get her be his wife and he loves her and now only the matter of time. He also said that after he get his things done, he will definately come back and it wont take long. Happy was so happy and she waiting for the day since then but she don't know and confused about their relationship now because seems everything changed even the guy say sweet words and calling her whatever when they were together. Happy waiting and waiting, not dare to sms the guy o call him because fear will disturb him but the guy also never call or sms her. Seems like forget about her or maybe inconvenient having another affair or anything. She end up think nonsense, sad, cry, but hope the day will reach as soon as possible. A friend of Happy, named Iceman, cant take it seeing her like that, and wake her up by telling her wat really happening and asked her not to be silly n waited for the day. Iceman even offered Happy that he would help her to find out that is her guy really love her and was only busy on work or having affair at outside but Happy don't want Iceman to do that. She scared to accept the fact so she just leave it that way.. (to be continue...)

What is Love?

Love is patient, Love is blind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking. It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs...

The very last minutes in my life...

If in the last minute of my life, an angel comes down of the sky and it offered me to the eternal life or one more minute with you, I would choose one more minute to be with you, because the eternal life without you does not exist.
In the end, I realize that I am very happy now, and I would not finish to tell you everything that Im thinking because i prefer to show it all to you...

The feeling coming back to haunt me...

After today, already 2 weeks didn't see him. I miss him so much but couldn't see him. my heart aching and bleeding inside. The situation now is completely different from the day before..the happiness is gone, only leaving behind memories..
My feeling seems to be like falling down from a very tall building and still alive but heavily injured... suffer. My heart just like being torn.
Although cant compared to my last 4 years relationship ending feel, but tis time it also pain. it was really hurt. From the inside to outside and from the outside to the inside..
I'd forced myself to not to think of him but i just cant control.. Last time's incident makes me collapse badly in whatever for almost a year plus.. This time, how long it would takes to heal....everyday end up shedding tears upon my pillow..

Day 5: Down Down Down

My sickness still sticking with me. It was very suffer as my throat just like not mine..well, my mum still angry of me n bad mood for already 2 days. I don't know how to express my feeling.
Its not to say suffer but just don't know how to express the feeling tat i'm already grow so old, my mum stil control me like underage kids.
because of this, i lost my 4 years relationship. not to say blame them but... *sigh*........

Day 4 : Hard Feeling 2

Today, same thing happened.. waiting for sms again. such a sick feeling and lazy to talk about tat also.
Today is cloudy and no rain at all. I'm sick.. I had fever, cough, flu, sore throat, and wholy body pain... but i still eat chips, chilies, n drank cold drinks. I just cant control myself.. Getting worst now.. Regret.